It feels like I haven't written in so long that I don't know where to start. There are so many things happening in our life right now, that I supposeI'm just in shock & I don't know what to write.... but I'll try :)
This morning I had the pleasure of going to the doctor with our birth mom & her grandma. I wasn't sure what all the doctor would do - but was very excited to see her progress.
The doctor measured her & she's right on target but then something miraculous happened.......I heard
a little "thump-thump" "thump-thump" and at that moment my heart stopped and I was closer to my son than I'd ever been.
She then stepped out of the room & it was just me, her g-ma & silence.
I turned to g-ma & said "That's the 1st time I've heard his heart"!
Then I starting tearing up - she was shocked because she didn't realize that I hadn't heard it before. I grabbed a tissue & tried to compose myself before our BM came back in.
When she came back in the room she immediately asked me what was wrong - and I wasn't going to tell her that I had cried, I'm tougher than that :) But she figured it out & by that time I started crying again.
I was apologizing for crying because I didn't want to be just a "silly girl"... but she reassured me & said, "Lydia, you're not silly ~ you're his mom!" Well that made me just ball. I jumped up & hugged her & it was amazing :)
We're so blessed to have an awesome birth mom - and she's become so much more than that to me.
And we can't wait to bring home our baby boy & share him with our family & friends!!
